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How does one know that they've hit rock bottom?
If those were the bases [yes, it's the plural of "basis." I know what I'm doing], then I know that at this moment I've hit rock bottom.
You can't blame me, the girl with the eternally messed up karma, for all the things that happen in my life.
I never ASKED that I get accepted to U.P. Heck, I never even answered the UPCAT that well. I'm probably the only person in history to answer all the questions in a right-minus-wrong exam. I never cared if I got in or not. U.P. was never in my plans. Not that I had a sturdy plan.
Back then, I knew I wanted to be a lawyer. I was so sure of it. I had my entire life plotted out. I even had my college life all plotted out.
Needless to say, I lost the drive to go after those dreams. I've numbed myself from feeling happy, contented, or whatever good feeling there is in the world. All I ever expect these days are feelings of contempt, sadness to the point of depression, or whatever horrible feeling there is in the world. This is my only means of survival. The only means I know of, anyway.
Kind of a defensive mechanism. If I continue being all hearts-and-flowers, I wouldn't expect that in two hours tops, I'd be miserable. At least when I'm all moody-and-broody, depressing things wouldn't depress me that much... Depressing things would be the norm... I wouldn't have to feel all the drama of false hopes anymore. All I need to focus on is the fact that I will be miserable and I'd have to find some way to ease the pain.
It gets tiring, you know, trying to be the person the people around you expect you to be.
I AM NO GENIUS like you guys think me to be. I try to be one, I try so hard to be perfect but all odds are always against me. Do you know how draining that is?
I guess you don't.
So for another time around, I will act as if I'm the perfect daughter you guys have. Besides, you guys will never realize how much of a mistake I am. I am a failure, I hope you guys would see that.
Wednesday heart attack
0 violent reactions From the nonsensical thoughts of your DramaQueen at 1:14 PMSo well, anyhoo, I thought that I should seize this opportunity to write because my Wednesdays have been so hectic the past few months..
I should be making my final project for Humanities, which is a painting... been researching tombstones in the world wide web 'cause i've decided to go all "art for public sake" since I'm no good in the technical aspect of art. Haha.
I'll post whatever I come up with in here to keep you guys posted... Not that i think i'ma kick-ass artist, I'm not. I draw like a 2 year old...
So lemme see... important highlights of my dull and depressing life....
oh, yeah.. i'm probably transferring schools. I'm not sure where... I'm not even sure if I'm transferring... I really can't decide... where is divine intervention when you need it?
oh well... i'll keep you guys posted. i've set a deadline for myself: March 15, 2008... haha.
ciao.
DramaQueen files this under %$#*
shuffle the golden ipod and get a price..
0 violent reactions From the nonsensical thoughts of your DramaQueen at 8:30 PMstill bored. still killing time to avoid killing myself.**
open itunes, put it on shuffle, and answer the following by using what song shows up. You can take it as the song's meaning or just the title.
So how's life treating you?
Song: Nothing in this world - paris hilton
Comments?:
i have no idea what this means, luv..
Where are you at the moment?
Song: beautiful girls - sean kingston
Comments?:
HAHAHAHAHA. so true, so true. first thing that made me smile today. and it's 8:46pm. yes, crappy day
What's the best thing about today?
Song: true - black eyed peas
Comments?:
the answer to question number2 WAS true and it made me smile. hahaha
What do you do for a living?
Song: it's gonna be me - nsync
Comments?:
um. i dunno what that means..
What do you want to do right now?
Song: 5:19 - matt werts
Comments?:
i am so not waiting for anyone to call... haha..
What do you like doing when you're drunk?
Song: music sounds better with you - stardust
Comments?
i love this song. haha. must love to sing when i'm drunk..
What would you like to say to that special someone?
Song: boulevard of broken dreams - green day
Comments?:
i walk alone. i walk alone. yeah, pretty much what i want to say.. lol
What do you say to people who try to put you down?
Song: come on - ben jelen
Comments?:
haha. so... siga of me..
What's your opinion on society today?
Song: build god then we'll talk - panic at the disco
Comments?:
pretty much true. f##ked up world we live in..
What do you really want to say to President Bush?
Song: as if - blaque
Comments?:
haha. funny.
What did you dream about last night?
Song: when i talk to you - mandy moore
Comments?:
i forgot what i dreamed about. not sure if i had a dream.. i love this song. pretty sad
What are you constantly thinking about?
Song: december - a change of pace
Comments?:
was pretty happy last december.. happier than i am now..
How do you let out your anger?
Song: pare ko [eraserheads cover] - spongecola
Comments?:
yeah, i do talk to my friends. hahaha
How do you like to waste your time?
Song: fall to pieces - avril lavigne
Comments?:
i waste my time.. falling into pieces. yup, pretty much sums it all up..
What makes you so individual?
Song: screaming infidelities - dashboard confessional
Comments?:
waaaat? haha. i dont cheat..
What's your hidden talent?
Song: penny and me - hanson
Comments?:
i have no idea what this means.. not the song. why it's the answer
What does everyone love you for?
Song: take my breath away - roxette
Comments?:
C'MOOOOOON. haha. stop it. i know i'm amazing. hahahaha
What are you doing tomorrow?
Song: magic man - school of rock all-star cast
Comments?:
umm. i'll be making straight a's tomorrow...?
If I gave you pencil and paper, what would you draw?
Song: mmmbop - hanson
Comments?:
my ipod seems to be loving hanson tonight. haha. HOW DO YOU DRAW AN MMMBOP?
What was your first love like?
Song: angel - shaggy
Comments?:
umm, never had a first love. haha. love this song 'cause my name's in it..
And your current love?
Song: intermission - panic at the disco
Comments?:
OKAY THIS HAS NO WORDS IN IT. haha
What's annoying you right now?
Song: electric eye - judas priest
Comments?:
love the band. haha
What's your life motto?
Song: i don't wanna miss a thing [aerosmith cover] - new found glory
Comments?:
um, okay?
What lesson did you learn yesterday?
Song: how do i deal - jennifer love hewitt
Comments?:
"anything can happen, but nothing ever does" SO GODDAMN TRUE
What are you going to do now?
Song: happy together - new found glory
Comments?:
um. dont get.
Anything else you'd like to say?
Song: light my candle - rent
Comments?:
yeaaah, which reminds me.. WHO HAS A DVD/VCD OF THIS?? haha
music brought to you impart by the golden ipod..
0 violent reactions From the nonsensical thoughts of your DramaQueen at 2:11 PMso i'm bored, decided to do this to kill the time and not myself..
Put your music player on shuffle.
Post the first 40 songs that come up. You can repeat artists if you want. If you have any repeats, skip to
the next track.
- baby one more time - britney spears
- i do - better than ezra
- my immortal - evanescence
- u got it bad - usher
- crazy train - black sabbath
- bizarre love triangle [new order cover] - frente
- california - phantom planet
- hanging by a moment - lifehouse
- who died - atreyu
- understatement - new found glory
- rape me - nirvana
- girlfriend - avril lavigne
- lonely day - phantom planet
- stay with me - finch
- unwell [acoustic version] - matchbox20
- this is halloween - marilyn manson
- here comes the pain - slayer
- shoot from the hip - a change of pace
- under pressure [queen cover] - the used and my chemical romance
- escape the hurt - typecast
- girls and boys - good charlotte
- wonderful - everclear
- larger than life - the backstreet boys
- this is the last time - keane
- so this is love - cinderella
- i just died in your arms tonight - air supply
- teasing to please - cute is what we aim for
- kaleidoscope world [francis m cover] - parokya ni edgar
- devil's child - judas priest
- calm before the storm - fall out boy
- spin - taking back sunday
- chopsuey - system of a down
- be my baby - vanessa paradis
- dirty business - the dresden dolls
- seasons in the abyss - slayer
- stop - spice girls
- here we go again - paramore
- with you - jessica simpson
- kidnap the sandy claws - she wants revenge
- the great escape - boys like girls
QUESTIONS:
1. Which song do you prefer, #1 or #40?
+i love both. [yes, i do love britney. she's a mess. haha] i'd go for 40. reminds me of my cousins
2. Have you ever listened to #12 continuously on repeat?
+yeah. 'cause i loved that song when it came out. haha. and i think he needs a new girlfriend. haha
3. What album is #26 from?
+the best of air supply, i think..
4. What do you think about the artist who did #15?
+i love them. i'm glad things didn't work out for rob when he went solo.. they're back together now right?
5. Is #19 one of your favorite songs?
+yeah, it is. kinda sad that mcr and the used aren't friends anymore. bert and gerard looked cute together. lol. i'm kidding.
6. Who does #38 remind you of?
+uhh. no one. haha
7. Does #20 have better lyrics or music?
+lyrics..
8. Do any of your friends like #3?
+i don't think so. I don't even like number 3. haha. remind me again why it's in my ipod?
9. Is #33 from a movie soundtrack?
+no, i don't think so..
10. Is #18 overplayed on the radio?
+naah, i don't even think the local radios know about them..
11. What does #21 remind you of?
+relationships. hahaha
12. Which song do you prefer, #5 or #22?
+five. gotta love ozzy..
13. What album is #17 from?
+god hates us all
14. When did you first hear #16?
+heard the original version from the movie [it's from tim burton's the nightmare before christmas].. this version i heard when i downloaded it. haha
15. When did you first hear #7?
+from the o.c. haha
16. What album is #8 from?
+no name face
17. Do any of your friends like #14?
+the emo kids do.. haha
18. What color does #4 remind you of?
+no one, still. haha
19. Have you ever blasted #11 on your stereo?
+naah, might give people ideas. hahaha
20. What genre is #37?
+emo? i dunno. the emo kids love paramore..
21. Can you play #13 on any instrument?
+naah, didn't try though
22. What is your favorite lyric from #30?
+ "what meant the world imploded, inflated.. then demoted all my oxygen
to product gas and suffocated my last chance.."
23. What is your favorite lyric from #16?
+"i am the 'boo' when you call, 'who's there?'"
24. Would you recommend #24 to your friends?
+they wouldn't love it.. they're more into mainstream
25. Is #2 a good song to dance to?
+i dunno.. haha
26. Do you ever hear #16 on the radio?
+naah..
27. Is #32 more of a “nighttime” or “daytime” song?
+night i think. haha
28. Does #36 have any special meaning to you?
+noope
29. Do any of your friends like #31?
+yeah, the emo kids, still..
30. Is #25 a fast or slow song?
+slow..
31. Is #35 a happy or sad song?
+depressing's more like it..
32. What is one of your favorite lyrics from #9?
"each failure is so symbolic of what's past and what's yet left to be
un-dead or am i really dying"
33. Is #34 better to listen to alone or with friends?
+alone. they won't appreciate it..
34. When did you first hear #27?
+downloaded it.. loved misery business..
35. Name 3 other songs by the artist who did #29?
+paint it black, mr. crowley, hell bent for leather..
36. Do you know all the words to #6?
+yeah, i do..
37. Does #28 have better lyrics or music?
+lyrics.. pretty good lyrics..
38. What album is #10 from?
+i have no idea..
A Poem
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
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